It’s been everywhere…I don’t remember much of anything past last night, so I guess I’ll just speak of from then on and my feelings associated.
Well, to Denis and Nick specifically, I’m sorry for lying to you guys about not looking for porn and masturbating this whole time. I don’t feel particularly good about it, but I know there is now no condemnation. I value our friendship very much and I hate showing you guys disrespect by not coming to you guys more often with personal struggles like that.
A couple weeks back or so the parable of the Pharisee and the Tax Collector in Luke 18 showed up in random readings a couple times, one immediately after the other. I began to pray about Andy’s sermon…turns out he preached about confession that Sunday, go figure! He talked a lot about how we are to confess our sins not only to God but to one another as well. I’ve known this for a while now of course, but never really took it to heart enough. I had been wanting to tell Amanda forever and tried multiple times, but came up short. I knew confessing to others would be my only way to freedom.
So I confessed to Max…and that helped a lot. I slipped up a couple times after that but I’ve been good since. I finally told Amanda last night…it feels good, but of course the repercussions of my actions are inevitably to be dealt with. I’m thankful, however, that I did not wait so long into our relationship. I’m glad that I didn’t live a lie for years. Thank you God, for answered prayers.
I’ve been stressing out way too much about grades lately, I need to relax. Put everything to prayer…
A lot’s on my mind. Thanks for hearing me out.



